And so now, on the last day of NaNoWriMo, it’s time to admit it publicly… I dropped out of Nano.
For the first time in five years, I didn’t finish my novel, and while I regret not being a better example for my region (since I’m the Municipal Liaison), I don’t feel guilty for concentrating on other things, like STeaP, like the new Warcraft expansion, like work, or simply my own sanity.
I’ve been through a lot of changes this year, changes that I’m incredibly thankful for, but finishing grad school, passing my board exam, getting married, starting my first “big” job, losing a co-host on STeaP, AND trying to muster up the energy to write a fifth novel this November just wasn’t going to happen.
I need time to breathe.
It’s part of the reason (among others) that I no longer work at Viddler… I just want to settle in and relax for five minutes. My brain and my body are simply done with big projects for this year, and I had just started to settle down into a calmer life when Nano started, which was horrible timing. Mix the timing in with some regional drama that just sapped a lot of my enjoyment out of the local events, and you have a recipe for failure.
I’m surprised that I so easily put Nano aside when I realized that I wasn’t enjoying it, and that I haven’t felt guilty. I’ve still gone to all of the meetings and rooted others on, but many of the locals have thrown in the towel as well. It seems that writing a 50,000 word novel simply wasn’t in the cards for several of us this year, and I’m glad that I can say that and feel okay about it.
Oh, and there’s always Script Frenzy in April. I have some big plans for this year. :)